Just another long day.....

Today was just like another other days; waking up in the morning, keeping myself busy with stuff, having no time to read the newspapers, and lastly putting myself back to sleep at night. It was all routine stuff but I don't get bored though. It was just another ordinary day...

I woke up from my slumber unwillingly this morning around 7.45am when my phone alarm went off. Feeling tired, I went back to sleep and got up at 8.30am. There, I picked myself up and began my journey of the day.

First, I went to NUS to collect my X-ray film and medical report done in April for my medical checkup at 'Shenton Medical' in International Plaza (Requirement for MOE teaching award clearance).

After the medical checkup was done, I went to a friend's house in Bedok to take a look at his ailing comp. I dunno wad actually happened to the comp and I couldn't isolate the problem. The computer would suddenly be cut off from the main power now and then. I formatted the comp and hope everything is fine now...

My days may sound mundane to some of you but it is full of experiences for me..I even went into a shop selling stationery in International plaza and asked for a quotation for A4 paper for my company....am I working to hard???

Life is so miserable???

Sometimes I wonder why I was born into this world, full of problems and misery which make my life seem so unimportant and undeserving...

Life is so unfair, so imperfect, so unpredictable yet so meaningful???

Yesterday after I watched the channel 8 serial 'mars and venus', I laid on my bed, unable to sleep, tossing here and there. My eyes were wide open, my mind was absolutely clear at that precise moment. I was wondering why life is full of ups and down? Is it a test? Why am I one of the few billions/zillions in this world to be treated as 'guinea pigs'?

But that was not really the issue. I can't imagine what life would be like if I lose my love ones? Would I collapse and commit suicide? No! I can't, I have to shoulder the responsibility of a brother and continue to care for one another. My Mum have pinned high hopes on me. I can't let her down. My gf will be yearning for my presence. I can't let her go....

What is happening to me? I really don't know...I'm lost...I'm desperate....I cried....

Live life to the fullest...

I just been to the wake of one of my company mate back in Keat Hong Camp. He wasn’t really close to me and I never really had conversation with him except for a few short exchanges during ‘duties’. So I don’t really know what kind of guy he is.

When I received a msg a few days back, telling me that he is dead. His wake is at…..I was shocked. One thing came to my mind. ACCIDENT – MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT. True enough, his death was caused by it.

I heard from his army buddy that he was involved in an accident while he was working for Macdonald delivery at around 4am. What really happened is pending. The bike has been send to traffic police for investigation and the police is appealing to the public for witnesses. The accident took place around 3 weeks ago and he had been in the hospital for 10 plus days. There wasn’t any serious external injury but he suffered from liver/lung etc damages and his immune system was weak. He had a series of virus attack which the doctors managed to cure at first but his weak immune system can’t do much for him. The virus took the better of him, and there he goes, leaving the world, his family, his relatives and dear friends.

MOTORISTS BEWARE!!! The road adjacent to King albert park leading to Clementi, near to the slip road from Bt timah Road. The lanes causes confusion and there is an unsual divider betweens the lanes. TAKE NOTE!!!

I took a last glance of him, wearing a suit with a tie, with some stitches visible from his charred lips, hair combed and styled. At that instant, I felt a sense of trepidation. A sense of loss, a sense of guilt. Life is so precious. And it was just merely less than half a year from ORD and this happened. Not to mention I had other friends who died from car/motorbike related accident.

I guilty because for I drive recklessly at times, for the sake of rushing for time, for the sake of thrill. I was neglecting my love ones – The hope they have for me, the importance of me in their lives. I didn’t think of it when I was driving. I decided not to drive recklessly anymore – cutting lanes without due care etc….

Dear friends, LIFE IS PRECIOUS. U never know what will happen to u at the very next moment. Treasure those around u. Forgive those who had disputes with. Give a touch of love to those around u.

To my dearest dear dear, I know that I am wrong and upsetted u many times. Please forgive me for my selfish and undeserving act/actions. I will treasure u always…